As Student Nurses we’re taught that at the end of life people go through a stage of reflection, they either look on the good stuff they did in their lives with a sense of achievement or they dwell on what they never had the chance to do, with regret.
Just work this one out with me, I’m 20 years old, got my whole life ahead of me right?
But I always find myself reflecting over my life so far and being proud of everything I’ve achieved but also regretting not doing certain things, things I feel I’m too old for now.
I know I’ve learnt a lot from my mistakes and I don’t regret those, at all.
We’re all growing up so so fast and I can’t keep up.
I wish I could relive parts of my life, because things have changed so much and I don’t think I appreciated the good times as much as I could’ve.
I’ve always wanted to grow up and be an adult. To be in control. Adulthood always looked so much fun as a child.
But now I’m an adult and I’m in control I feel like childhood was so much better, even though at the time it seemed so shit.
I need to learn to embrace life, to look at all the positives.
But I’m so used to seeing all the negatives and it’s hard to break a habit of a lifetime.